I haven’t been here in a while.  I’ve been hurt, really hurt and something inside of me has shut down and I really need to just say it because I have no one to say it to. 

I am absolutely broken. Just dead inside.

Blah. FML.

Six days exactly before the third anniversary of my dad’s death and I receive an email from my dad’s cousin’s wife, three hours later I receive a friend request from her daughter and an approval request to list me as a family member!

If you don’t know the back story to any of the situation with my dad and his family and the thing I’ve been silently begging for for years… well then this probably seems out there and just strange to be this excited about a thing like this.

Sweet Jesus! I’m on cloud 9 right about now :D

I don’t know even how they found me, they had to of outright searched for me and did so using dad’s last name (I don’t legally carry his name, I carry mother’s but I go by his). 

I can’t stop smiling, this is ridiculous.